Friday, May 18, 2007

nothings

I haven't slept much this week.
I worked Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and today at Tropical Sno.
I spend my tip money on energy drinks so I can stay awake at work.
I'm sick of school.
I stepped on a nail yesterday, and it didn't hurt even though it went in half a centimeter.
It hurt this morning.
Things always hurt in the morning.

And I can't be honest on here anymore. When did that happen?
When did I become capable of destroying people?
Why do I feel free?
I do feel happy. And hopeful.

I will have to start posting in cryptic poems since I can no longer say what's happening.

3 comments:

Ashlee Liddell said...

Lindsay, I am sorry your place of safety and honesty has been taken away from you. It really sounds like right now you could use a place to voice (work through) what is on your heart.....
My heart hurts for you.
I want so badly to know someone in your life is protecting you, watching out for your best interest and loving on you, reminding you how you are fearfully and wonderfully made.....
That is my prayer for you....

Lindsay said...

yes, somebody is doing that. more than one person, in fact.

thank you.
:-)

your comments always make me feel really loved.

Ashlee Liddell said...

I am so thankful for those people...
I am thankful you are aware of their love and support...
I am so thankful God could use me to help you feel loved....

That makes me smile.

:)