Sometimes I just don't feel like I'm cut out for this.
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"What I realized suddenly was that the true failure would have been if I hadn't given a damn. You can bandage a wound, set a broken bone, but not caring...you can't cure that and you can't recover from it."
"What I realized suddenly was that the true failure would have been if I hadn't given a damn. You can bandage a wound, set a broken bone, but not caring...you can't cure that and you can't recover from it."
About Me
- Lindsay
- Everything in my life is about to change, and I'm absolutely terrified. I breathe one instant at a time.
5 comments:
for what?
the american life. going to college, getting married, having kids and a job and everything.
oh dear. one thing at a time, please.
1) what, pray, is the "american life"? i would suggest that there is no such thing because for every description you come up with, there's going to be plenty of americans going about their lives in an entirely different way. and guess what else? you have to create your life here just as much as you would anywhere else, and if you don't want this ephemeral 'american life' then you don't really have to have it.
2) you are certainly capable of going to college if that is what you want.
3) getting married and having kids? seriously? you're only eighteen years old. there's plenty of time in the world if you want that and plenty of time to figure out if you don't, so calm down.
4) a job. they're not that bad. and besides, school puts it off nicely.
you plan on spending the next eight maybe more years in school, peacecorps, or whatever else comes along... so really, there's no need to be too concerned. your whole life isn't going to happen in the next six months and there's no need to rush.
I remember that feeling...like so many things were hinging on the decisions I made as a high school student....who set up this system I ask? Who?????
Sorry, back to your pondering....
I think it would be troublesome if you did not ask yourself questions of this nature.
The concern becomes if you let your fear or uncertainty stop you from seeing what God has in store for you.
I know that saying I remember some similar feelings, and suggesting you just plow ahead isn't really helpful, but sometimes you just have to remember you aren't alone.
and for the record, at almost ten years your senior, I have still only done two of your four listed accomplishments......
morgan- i am probably getting ahead of myself, you're right. but the point is that when i wrote this i didn't feel like i could handle today, and that the future was just more of today. i feel a lot better now.
ashlee- that makes sense. sometimes i have a really hard time overcoming my fear of things. college is really, really frightening, and i don't know why we are thrown into it all at once and all of the choices it brings.
i'm glad you haven't done all of those things, maybe there is hope in finding happiness outside of the formulaic system.
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