Friday, December 08, 2006

freaking out

"We are pleased to announce that we're still on schedule to release MIT admissions decisions online at 12:00PM EST on Saturday, December 9."

That's 2:00 PM, I think.
Tomorrow AFTERNOON!!!!!

I'm having a heart attack.

I'm not sure whether I should look tomorrow or not.

But can I resist the temptation or the torment?

I don't know. If I don't get in, I don't want to ruin my weekend with Josh with sad feelings. But I don't know if I can handle the anticipation while knowing that the answer to my future is waiting online.

I'm kind of wishing at the moment that everyone didn't know I'm applying to MIT, because now if I don't get in, I'm obliged to tell a lot of people.

If I didn't get in... they've already made the decision. It's didn't, not don't.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Josh in 6.5 hours...

1 comment:

Lindsay said...

yeah, thanks, i noticed that upon further contemplation...
well, in 15 hours the anxiety will go away.
it feels like i'm waiting for debate postings. the weird thing is that i know i should be way more nervous about MIT than about breaking, but it feels like the same nervousness, the same urgency.
weird.