Wednesday, November 08, 2006

now

I don't know what to think.
What to feel.
What to say.
What to do.
Who to be.
How to help you, or anyone.
I don't know why I do the things I do, what part of me reacts to the things that hurt it.
What if the future hangs on a thread so invisible that we ignored it, but one breath of too-fast air will tear it apart?

I did terribly on a math test today. The highest I could have gotten is a low B. After getting 100% on the first two.

I walked out of seminary today praying, "God, please, I can't make my own decisions anymore, just tell me what to do."

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