Festival was fun. I didn't screw up although this senior girl from my school was a jerk to me all week because I guess she wanted to be first chair. She could have had it for all I cared. Anyway, I roomed with Erin, and it was really fun getting to know her better. She is such an amazing person, and a truly amazing example to me in every way possible.

Today was horrible. I've been bogged down with SO much work, trying to catch up, and I'm missing school on Friday as well for debate. I also had my tutoring tonight at Sylvan Learning Center and that went pretty well. I think it will help.

My mom had to bring me this portfolio thing I left at home (we got back at 2 AM this morning so I was really tired when I went to school) and she said that she had read my journal (for, what, the fiftieth time?), and I was just really too tired to care. I just felt numb and decided whatever happened happened.

Anyway it wasn't too horrible. But it just seems like my life is all about keeping things secret, and controlling the damage that results when my fortress is compromised.