opening up

I'm slowly trying to repair the damage from everything I broke, slowly fixing my life.
I talked to Matt yesterday, totally saved our relationship. I told him everything. It was all or nothing. There was nothing left to lose. Now we're okay again... we just played tennis and had ice cream and I feel way closer to him now, and for the time being I definitely choose him (as opposed to Josh- Josh will come once I break up with Matt).
Also I talked to Shauna, about starting over, about letting go of the pain that is in our past. And I'm talking to Olivia.

About Nietzsche, I'm reading the origin of tragedy or something... he keeps going on about how seeing the truth creates nausea that only art can fix... I don't agree with most of it but it's way interesting...

I don't understand this Apollo vs. Dionysn (sp?) thing though, or the Greek choir surrounding a spectacle that shields it from reality. Doesn't make sense to me.