Erin and Olivia came over and we talked about high school and Josh and me and life and I felt safe. Friends. I had forgotten what they felt like. I had forgotten what the word meant. I am so terrified of losing people by burdening them too much. Well Olivia knows nearly everything and has never left me, and Erin knows enough that I don't believe she will.
They both hugged me and walked out the door and I came downstairs and I wrote Josh an email saying either he gets himself professional help or I intervene. And I told him he could hate me if he needed to.
And I pressed 'send' and cried.
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I think you are taking some really really good steps re. your relationship with Josh, and that makes me VERY VERY GLAD.
I'm very proud of you, too. I'm sure the road ahead won't be easy, but you are doing the right thing. And maybe it will be a step forward in your own healing.
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