High

Since I got a 93% on my calculus test, the best grade out of all his classes by a margin of 10% (the next highest was an 82%), my grandmother took me out to dinner and I ate. Chinese food. It felt so good to eat it... although I think my body was a bit shocked that after being starved so long I shoveled in a whole entire plateful of sweet and sour chicken, crab rangoons, noodles, mongolian beef, and broccoli pork. I'm trying to decide if it was worth it.
I came home and took 15 pills and was throwing up everything within an hour. And I was really random and high and today I am running into walls and I can't see or walk or think straight. I've had two pieces of toast all day... they were good pieces of toast though!
So I don't know if eating last night was worth the purge, which was miserable of course. Amanda pulled me through it by emailing me and the usual opressive loneliness when I purge was lost, which made things a lot easier to deal with. I got pretty crazy and jumped off our porch over and over again though at about 10 p.m. after my parents were in bed. Having sustained no injuries, unlike the other times I took the twenty-two foot plunge, I am thanking my lucky stars.
I'm going to go sleep over at Olivia's and sleep off this horrible intoxication. I think we're going to a movie. All day today I just read F. Scott Fitzgerald's "This Side of Paradise", which is very good but reminds me so much of "The Catcher in the Rye" that I wonder which stole the other's idea. Although someone I like just died in the book in a car wreck which makse me sad. Also I played Final Fantasy 10 on my playstation two for two hours during which the bad stuff in the game, "Sin", destroyed a village which was also sad. I need to read happier books/ play happier video games.
All in all it's been an okay day although I hate the slidy, shifty, unfocused mentality being high gives me, and I hate how my already dismal coordination gets even worse when I have overdosed.
I'm still not thinking clearer so most of this post can I'm sure be disregarded, but I'm looking forward to tomorrow when I'll have my intellect and coordination and vision and stomach back.