I'm in LOVE!!

I AM IN LOVE WITH AN AMAZING GUY AND HE IS IN LOVE WITH ME!!!!!
The true joy of being in love, of having a healthy relationship, is beginning to hit me. I was talking to my therapist yesterday about it, and about everything. Of course, it would be easier for me to, instead of hearing that I am beautiful and brilliant, hear that I am a b*tch and a whore. It would be so much easier for me to, instead of being kissed, be hit. But remarkably, I am in a healthy relationship, and I have done something amazing for myself by allowing myself to love Matt and trust him.
"This boy must be amazing," Terry, my therapist said, "because you don't trust or love people very easily." And it began occurring to me, how lucky I am, how wonderful Matt is, how amazing it is that he is waiting four months just to kiss me again, because he loves me and can't imagine going out with anyone else after dating me.
Terry said, sure it's going to be hard, sure it's not the easy thing. But it's going to be so good for you. And she's right. It is good for me, and it is amazing that I have gotten to the point where I am capable of maintaining this sort of relationship. I think that by my birthday in May, I will be able to kiss him, and feel the true pleasure of love, and sensuality, and see that it is not carnal or ugly. In the month since I started this blog I have already completely changed my views about love, just from loving Matt, and allowing myself to be loved in return.
And I was talking to Brittany today, and I said, "He's the only boy in the whole school I'd really want to go out with." And it's true. Most guys just aren't appealing to me at all. They're immature and stupid, even my friends that are guys, and I'd never date them. But Matt... he's amazing. He's SO freaking amazing and so perfect for me. And I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!
And it feels amazing, being in love, for the first time.