being a normal teenager (whatever that is)

I've been reading so much philosophy lately it's all getting mixed up in my head... I enjoy reading about empirical vs. rational (empirical was senses, rational thought, right?), anyway, I'd have to agree more with the rational people. But senses are important too... I think I just believe more in what I can deduce with my mind than what I can sense.
I hate Spinoza. I certainly hope he is wrong.
Kant is interesting. His thoughts about morality. There's some aspect to them... some naive optimism. I didn't like him before, but he is growing on me. And I like Descartes ideas about two very separate realities (I can't remember them right now... extending something or other and substance or something), just about your spirit being totally disconnected. I think therefor I am... he said that, right?
I like thinking about these things, what makes us human, how things work. Hume was interesting too... was he the one that totally rejected everything and built his philosophy from scratch? They all run together after a while.

Anyway... today I actually got a life and did something, volunteered at the humane society (as I do every Saturday now), went to lunch with some friends and then the homecoming football game. I didn't go to the dance as my date was sick. But it was really fun... the game was exciting. Well, no, the first three quarters were really boring as nobody scored or anything, but then Flathead gained fifty yards or so on one play in the fourth quarter and scored, and the Bengals so nearly caught up in the last thirty seconds of the game, but not quite. I guess the boring two and a half hours was worth that ten minutes of excitement. Anyway, then we hung out and played games, like Cranium... I love Cranium, I totally kick butt at it, people fear my Cranium skills (except for when it comes to humming... they still fear me then, but not for my skills...).

My friend Siobhan just stayed at home and did homework all day, as I was tempted to, but then I realized that when I look back at high school I want to have had some fun, to have had a social life and everything. Fifty years from now whether I get a 110% or 100% on some quiz won't matter, but hanging out with my friends and going to football games and volunteering at the humane society will.

I've decided I really like Josh K. (from here). It was sad that he was sick this week, but we're going to do something next weekend. I really like Josh P. from Idaho too, I'm in love with him, but he makes me feel suffocated and scared sometimes, talking about marriage and stuff. With Josh K., I don't want a serious relationship, I just want to have fun.

I don't get myself. When I broke up with Matt, I decided to be single for a long time. Wow. Two weeks. What a long time. Go me. :-)