SO... I went 2-1, which is okay. I lost the debate by one point, and the ballot said I was winning the entire time but the affirmative swayed him in her final summary. Why? It doesn't say. Apparently as high school debaters we are also expected to be psychic and read the judge's mind. Oh well, I know it was a really close debate because the ballot says it was.

Anyway, it was just some big topicality argument so who cares? The tournament was fun... I think I was stressed though because my stomach hurt really badly all day.

I am apparently still a strong contendor in a very unusual contest: that of who can lose the most things at debate tournaments during their high school career. Continuing my record of leaving something at every single tournament, I left my binder and flow pad and pen/pencils, the binder including all of my cases and all of my papers on this resolution etc. Most of it is saved on my computer, but not all of it, and I lost the handbook. Oh well, maybe I will get it back at the next tournament like my shoes last year. And the truth is, after losing shoes and articles of clothing and finally at NFL's half of my school notebooks/homework, just leaving my debate stuff is an improvement.

Today was so totally confusing because there were a lot of really awkward romantic moments with Matt. There is nothing more frustrating than flirting with someone, and having someone flirt with you, who you let go and know you can't have back even though you like them. It was really depressing and I feel miserable and confused about this whole stupid mess, and really angry at religion and my past at the moment.

Well, I'm going to go to bed now as I'm exhausted, and tomorrow's going to be long because I did absolutely no homework today. I always need to do homework at tournaments, but it's hard to read something mundane with all that adreniline-rushing exciting stuff going on.

OH, watching the outrounds was fun... they all turned into topicality debates as well. This resolution is so freaking confusing; I hate it.