My gosh what a night. Something has been happening lately (for the sake of not hurting some people involved I will be mysterious about it on here, my first sort-of lie I will tell on this blog) and it became an emergency tonight at 8:00 p.m. so I called my debate coach. After I finally persuaded my mom to let me go my coach came and picked me up and we went to JB's and talked for a while, and talked about how to stop this emergency situation. So I think it is cleared up now. But at 9:56 p.m. my mom called my cell phone and said "we need to talk," in this horrible voice. So I thought she might have read something I'd written about this emergency so I sort of wanted to panic. I begged my debate coach to just get on the high way and drive away so I'd never have to deal with it but she said we'd run out of gas in twenty miles anyway.

So my coach went in the house with me to try to deal with the wrath of mother, and it turned out all right, not nearly as bad as I was suspecting, and the situation did not explode as awfully as it could have.

So now it is 10:49 and I have absolutely no homework done because this situation took precedant. It is a good thing I have recently switched from majorly depressed to hypomanic and may be able to stay insanely productive long enough to get this work down.

I've been really panicky all day. I had two panic attacks in school today for the first time in months. It was horrible. And I was so angry. But I feel a lot better now after talking to my coach, although my mom is right it was unfair. But it was definitely the best and really only way to handle the emergency.

So I had a bit of a scare tonight. It got my heart beating. And even if the emergency is not cleared up, I have begun to deal with it.

(Wow I sound vague).

Oh, and I think (if I can come up with $500) I am taking a bioethics class next semester. That took a lot of figuring out to see how much it would cost because it puts me one credit over the ACE limit (6) per semester.