my baby my baby girl my doggy my puppy my angel the one i waited for so long the one i loved so much the one that was to start sleeping in bed with me tonight ran out in the street and was hit by a car and my dad tried to give her mouth to mouth the whole way my mom drove 60 in town and ran red lights but we got to the vet and they shook they're head htey didn't even TRY ANYTHING fuc* them they didn't even try
and my dad was sobbing it's the first time i've ever seen that through all our family has been through it was the death of our angel we were all crying so hard i kept imagining smashing everything in that room they put us in throwing the phone and seeing the insides split open.
i don' think i will ever feel again. i kept remembering playing with her, kept remembering holding her on my lap and hugging her and loving her and it feels like a white hot poker is driving into me.
i've stood up against so much these past seven months wind water waves but i can't get through this without cutting... i have the feeling that the real strength would be to do that and maybe i'll try but i can't be strong anymore i've been crying all morning nad i want so badly to die inside i can't live with these memories of my best friend my dog i can't live knowing i held her when she was going cold and her head flopped i can't live i can't live i want to die
everything horrible happens at once
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I was blogging by and am sooooo very sorry to hear this! I have lost my best dog friends before too, some like you lost yours. It hurts, but it will pass honey. You have to be strong and give it time. Somewhere out there is another dog that needs you and wants you. The dog pic I use here is my latest dog, Ginger. I got her from a shelter after my Labrador died. It was the best thing I could have done for myself and for Ginger too. Please hang in there for someone needs you!
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