hmph

Remarkably, I am still alive. The first day of school is always the most boring. Also, I don't think it's hit me yet, not really. It still feels like a camp I'm going to. It will be over in a week and then I will go back to sleeping in and sitting around at coffee shops with random people for days on end. It feels so unreal to me, that I have like 180 (79?) days left of this.

I really like all my teachers, especially my English teacher. He is really, really, really good. I could tell I was going to love his class after ten minutes. He is definitely not an idiot like my old English teacher. And I have the same math teacher as last year... I like him a lot. And also I have a new chem teacher, he's really loud and scary, kind of like my mom, but Shauna's in that class with me so I'll survive, and at some point Amanda's student teaching. American history I have with a bunch of stoners... the boys behind me were going on the whole time about how many MIP's they got this summer, like it's some sort of contest to see who can get the most. It looks like it's going to be really easy. I'm tempted (very tempted) to switch into AP, no matter how hard it is, but I realize that it'll be a challenge to me to allow myself to not be challenged. Also my money management class will be easy, but looking at the course syllabus (sp?) I think it will help me a lot, because I'm rather clueless when it comes to finances.

I got into all-state orchestra playing bass... the weird thing is Mallory and Shauna didn't get in on violin, and some people that are not as good as them did. It's horrible how random the world is, and how unfair auditions can be, if you're having an off-day. Shauna/Mallory are consistently really good... the people that got in just had a random brilliant, lucky day of playing. It's what we all pray for.

I have a lot of friends in my classes which will help a lot. Except for US history... but I've already sort of made a friend in there, an aquaintance I had who also has no friends in there. And the teacher's really nice.

Today after school I had to get this pathetic $106.75 math text book at the Carroll bookstore, and it's only the first of three math books I'll need this year. And it's not even hardcover. Pathetic.

Also I had to take my calculator back to Staples (who took it back bless their hearts) because Carroll has to be all elite, and require Voyager 200's, even if they're the same freaking thing as the TI-89 titaniums. Pathetic, all of it... man college is so expensive. And I got this class for a third of the student price, and it was 1000 something... but if I actually went to Carroll, I could get a scholarship and not have to pay for it.

Mr. George, my math teacher, told me though that becuase I'm so advanced in math and I have a 4.0 and I'm involved in activities and I am taking AP classes and I scored pretty high on the ACT that I will probably get a full ride scholarship no matter where I go (unless it's like MIT or some other place I actually want to go), which is nice.

Well... school could have been worse. The world only half ended. I really think it will be better than last year though because I really like all my teachers, and I'm really interested in everything I'm taking.

We're dissecting cats the whole second semester of bio 2 though... I couldn't even handle the frogs last year, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

And in May I have to take the AP bio test. Maybe I will take the AP American History test and just randomly study like crazy right before hand without taking the AP class... I don't know.

I must get back to glaring at this expensive math book that probably cost 10 dollars to publish.